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Ho-ho-ho to everyone

Looks like Christmas time is the busiest time of the year for a career person like me. Hehehe I'll be back next year and hopefully update my blog regularly by that time. MERRY CHRISTMAS and a HAPPY NEW YEAR! I just wish I can upload an image to celebrate the season with kaso chocolate cake na lang ako for Xmas. Off to Bataan for now then Dagupan City and Baguio for next week. Happy Holidays!

Marilyn Monroe circa 1949

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Marilyn on the Beach 1949 A classic bombshell. Sexy pa rin kahit may 'bilbil'. hehehe I have recently purchased this lacy, red-violet camisole. I saw it on a Friday and over the weekend I kept thinking about it so for my peace of mind I bought it. Now, I can't seem to figure out how and when I'm going to wear it in public. It's just too mahalay. My brother exclaimed upon seeing me wearing it, "Ate, anlaki ng tiyan mo!" Aside from the fact that he also said na 'Mukhang inverted etits daw ang cleavage ko at ayaw niyang makita dahil babangungutin daw siya!' Nyahaha Let's just say magkasing laki yata kami ng 'puson" ni Marilyn Monroe sa pic na ito. You see, women have this thing about their bodies. We tend to be "catty" about other women's looks kaya we hate so many things about ourselves. Magaling kaming manlait. Ganon ako dati. Pero lately I noticed that I don't fuss too much about my body. Kaya si...

Tick-tock-tick-tock

Sabihin na lang natin na 2 years na lang bago maging kasing edad ko si Hello Kitty ngayong 2004. Kaya nung nagkita kami ng mga kamag-anakan ko nung isang linggo putangina di ako tinantanan ng isa kong tiyahin na mag-asawa na raw ako. I think itong expectation na ito mas mabigat lalo na kapag babae kang close to your 30s. Kasi may expiration ang egg cells ng kababaihan. And to ensure na healthy ang offspring mo, may certain age na dapat kang mag-conceive or else if beyond that baka bugok na at latak na yun mga itlog sa ovaries. hahaha But that's science. Whether you like it or not, cycle nga ng katawan natin yun. Pero since nung mga panahon ng mga nakakatanda natin eh maaga sila nagsisipag-asawa (between 24-26 sa mga tiyahin at nanay ko), they expect din tayong mga younger generation na ganon din ang ating gagawin. Pero hellooo... iba naman kaya yun given variables nung panahon nila nung 1970s at ngayong year 2004 na. Although sabihin nating same pa rin ang formula na kelanga...

The Sweetest Thing

Extremely busy for two weeks now. *Sigh* Makes me wonder when this is going to end and if my week is going to be like this for the rest of my working days. One of the nicest and sweetest thing somebody said to me this week: "I hope that your days are going well, and I look forward to hearing of the adventures of quite possibly the only other Louie Oviedo on this earth..." True, it's quite a rare and strange coincidence that we're two different individuals yet we have the same name! I felt hugged when I first read it. *big grin* Feels great when you're being appreciated. Brings a smile as I go around in circles trying to beat the clock.

Meet Louie Oviedo

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Meet Louie Oviedo... another Louie Oviedo aside from me. Oh lookie what I found on my other website Louie's Newsies ! One of me guests was there. And we have the same name!!! He's cute 'no? Hehe And he's a HE... totally unlike me. I think he's from Colorado or something (let me verify). He's under my "Unbelievable!!!" link. Looks like he's a musician. Check him out!!!

Kinky Sex: How to Get 'Down and Dirty' with a Woman

by Dr. Dennis Neder Copyright © 2004, Seduction Insider. Seduction Tips & Advice for Men. First, a story: This guy and girl meet in a bar. The guy is obviously depressed, and the girl asks, "Why so glum?" The guy says, "Well, I just broke up with my girlfriend of 4 years because I'm into kinky sex and she's not." So the girl says, "That's amazing! My husband and I just got divorced 2 months ago because I'm into kinky sex and HE'S not!" So, the two of them decide to get a hotel room. She gets undressed and gets into bed. He strips and turns off the light. After a minute she starts hearing all this grunting and moaning. She's not sure what's going on, but just keeps listening. 3 minutes later she hears him "finish" and asks, "Are you ok?" The guy, still panting, replies, "Oh yes - that was GREAT!" She asks, "WHAT was great?" The guy says, "Oh man, I just took a huge dump ...

Melon by DAVID LaCHAPELLE, 1998

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Amanda Lepore: Melon, New York, 1998 color, 20"x24", signed, edition of 30  Upon seeing it, reminded me of paintings by Matisse and Gauguin. Great colors. Wicked humor. Kink pick-up line: Hi, Lady, nice melon you got there! Pakwan naman...

Tom and Andrea

What's so nice with the Unlimited offer one telco is offering right now... you find friends and get re-acquainted with their lives once more. Ibang klase! Who could have imagined that you could do "telebabad" on your own mobile phone?! I had one guy friend whom had so much fun talking to me, asked me to meet him at a nearby coffee shop just so we could continue our two hour long updates. I met this guy during my UP Manila days but lost touch somewhere. "Are you doing anything ba? Saan ka ba banda? Puntahan kita diyan." I told him my exact location and we ended up talking in a coffee shop. Two hours on the phone and a coffee shop meeting was all it took for him to open up about something that has been bothering him the whole weekend or so he tells me. "Kink, can I tell you something? Promise me you won't tell it to anybody else?" "Yeah, sure. Like I still see the people we both used to know. I can put you on my blog though but I won...

Kink's (c)HUNK #2: Duncan James of Blue

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Duncan James of Blue aka Ang Lalaking Bagong Laba. Hehehe... never expected myself to be a boyband fan. But he's sooo darn sexy! I've only seen him mostly on Blue's MTV and everytime I see him I just throw my knickers on my TV set. *snicker* What I like most about this bloke is that he doesn't give a bloody shit about his looks. He always has that "I just got out of the spin dryer" look. Or what I'll say in my own native language, "Ang lalaking mukhang bagong laba." He probably looks at himself in the mirror, fixes his hair with gel, buttons his shirt, puts on his pants then runs out of the door. Honey, I like the attitude and I like your style. Rating: Three lacy thong panties and a see-through bra.

*BANG! Lock.*

No more! My heart cannot take the pain anymore. I picture myself amidst a great big hall surrounded by doors. All of them are open. Sunlight streaming through them. This is my heart. This great big hall with doors widely open. Welcoming everyone. No more. This stops now. I want to feel less pain and let the scars that haven't healed yet to mend itself. *Door creaks. Shuts it. Locks it with key.* No more charity work for me. I've given dates even to those I don't even like. It was in the hopes that they see themselves and appreciate who they are. Seeing that a nice, not-so-bad-looking woman is actually going out with them. I wanted them to have more confidence. But it never really worked. They feed off from my confidence. *BANG! Closes another door shut. Lock.* Former lovers whom I let pass by my life. You belong to my past. Not in the present. No more baggages from here on. I leave you. *BANG! Lock.* No more pain. *BANG! Lock.* Love hurts? ...

On Hangovers

I don't feel good. My brain is swimming. And it seems that everytime I move, the world moves with me. The only time I feel ok is when I'm lying on my bed. Therefore, pwede kaya ako maglakad ng nakahiga na lang? Di ko alam ilang beer nainom ko kagabi. I think I stopped counting at one. One! One beer Bwahahaha! Moved to next week 'yun mga gagawin ko for today. Ang hirap pala maglakad ng nakahiga. Anyway, hindi na talaga ako iinom next time. Hindi na ako iinom ng marami! *** Sabi ko nga kahapon, I'm feeling unwell. Yun akala kong bipolar unwell. I was doing my chores. Walk to the nearby FedEx station and mail my documents. And guess what kung ano ang tugtog kahit saan ako mapunta? Matchbox 21 I'm not crazy I'm just a little unwell right now I know you can't tell But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see a different side of me... Nyahaha And right now I am unwell. Toxic pa nga e. Hangover!!! *** Since I had two bipolar epis...

Brief explanation on bipolar manic-depressive disorder

Taken from Overcoming Depression (The Definitive Resource for Patients and Families who live with Depression and Manic-Depression) by Demitri Papolos, MD and Janice Papolos, 3-4. Mood disorders are the "common cold" of major psychiatric illnesses. Those who have manic-depression will veer from periods of superactivity, manic elation, and grandiose schemes to feeling of despondency, immobility, guilt, and inability to experience pleasure or even think normally. These people who experience these highs and lows have what psychiatrists now call bipolar disorder . Those who suffer recurrent sever depression without the highs are said to have unipolar or nonbipolar major depression. The psychiatric profession groups these mood disturbances under the rubric major affective disorders . At first glance the term "affective" doesn't send the mind traveling, but it's a word philosophers and psychologists have traditionally used for emotion or one's "spiri...

Feeling the Blues

I've been calling around hospitals asking how much is creatinine and their lithium assay. Looking for a bargain deal. These are both checked through my blood and I used to get both of them from UST Hospital since it's like one jeep ride away from my place. But then, they're so fucking expensive that I had to do a little research today. Creatinine's for checking if I still have healthy kidneys. The lithium assay is for measuring lithium in my blood, usually therapeutic range between 0.50-1.40 is considered acceptable. I've been drinking lithium carbonate (Quilonium-R) since 1994. It's probably working well since that was the last time I had a relapse. Hurray for lithium!!! I was only twelve when I learned I had this rare mood disorder. That was 1988. And it was only in 1994 that I learned what it was called. Bipolar disorder. I don't know what exactly it is. They tell me it's a mood disorder. In 1994, when people saw me "in action" with...

Kink's (c)HUNK #1:Christopher Reeve

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Bye, Mr. Reeve, feel free to visit me *wink* Crush ko si Christopher Reeve nung seven years old pa lang ako. (Kasi ang alam ko pagdating ko ng eight patay na patay na ako kay Robby Rosa. *sings "Like A Cannonball") nyahaha Naalala ko yung kilig na naglalakbay mula sa tumbong ko pataas ng spinal column ko!! Yung panahon na di ako mapakali sa upuan kahit nai-Combantrin naman na ako ng nanay ko tuwing pinapanood ko yun Superman. Peyborit ko yun part 2. Pansin niyo rin bang laging naka-pomada ang buhok niya at hindi nagugulo kahit "mahangin sa labas?" Yes, folks! God has taken another one of my cutie pies. Surely I wouldn't mind if he visits me in my dreams. Ahahaayyy... I would always admire this man. He's a great source of inspiration, never fails to amaze me, and his disability was never a hindrance to live a good and fruitful life. Rating: I'll throw in my closet with all my clothes. I'll walk around naked for one day for this guy. May...

The Date with the Stranger

He seemed ecstatic when he saw me. I can see it on the grin he flashed and the way his cool, baritone voice greeted me. They were all gone as he turned aloof, distant and businesslike. Maybe this was expected of him, I thought, as I walked three paces behind him. Could it be that he has Japanese lineage and has to abide by their traditions? I wondered; perhaps, considering those tiny slits one would call his eyes. Or it may just be sheer nervousness that made him act in such a manner---to think that he shall be doing this with a complete stranger. Then again, it was all part of the bargain. We went inside the room where he asked me to lay down and then said, “Open.” I, on the other hand, was most willing to assist him so I naturally complied. It had been hours that we remained in that position. At least, he had the advantage to maneuver into a more comfortable position. While I, poor and helpless, sustained the same placement in prolonged anguish. He was luckier fo...

Who's your mameeh??!

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I want one but not now. This is my nephew, Jaos Dominic aka my little Domeng. hehe Born on August 27, 2004. I'm not his mameeh, my younger sister is. I'm going to be his "Tita Ninang" come October 24, 2004. I still have to buy him his gift and I need to find where in West Triangle is the church.

Bakit ka ba pumapayat?

Ngayon, ‘yan na palagi ang tanong sa akin. Isang buwan lang akong di nakita ng nanay, tatay at tiyahin ko, biglang bungad sa akin, “Payat ka yata ngayon.” Pati kapag dumadaan ako ng Powerdance twice a month, tanong din iyan ng mga kaklase kong nakita ako nung medyo chubby-chubby ako tinatanong ako ng, “ Bakit ang payat mo ngayon?” Ang sagot ko, “Hindi ko alam.” Dahil kapag tinitimbang ko naman ang sarili ko sa weighing scale ko nasa pagitan pa rin ng 125-130 lbs pa rin ang timbang ko gaya nung huli nila ako nakita at 5’4” pa rin naman ang height ko so di ko alam bakit. Yan na rin ang timbang ko for the past two years since 2002. Kapag tinitingnan ko sarili ko sa salamin, andon pa rin naman puson ko, di pa rin naman malnourished ang itsura ko. Malaki pa rin boobs ko at matambok pa rin pwet ko. At hindi payat ang tawag ko sa sarili ko... sexy.* Hehe *Oo na, makapal na kung makapal pero sino pa ba mag-a-appreciate sa akin kundi sarili ko, di ba??! Walang saysay ang pagbabawas...

Applegeeks.com

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Nudists of the world, unite!! We have nothing to lose but our clothes!!!

Are You In Love with a Gemini? May 20 - June 20

If you are in love with a Gemini man or woman, give him or her elusivity and a lot of space alone. This individual needs a great deal of stimulation to stay interested and you will be much more appealing if you have some interests and friends of your own. Detachment is also a help here and you must guard against sentimentality with this soul. Remembering that this person is, for the most part, a thinker rather than a feeler will help to keep this relationship in perspective. Changing your hair, your dress, or your schedule is another way to keep this one off guard. Spontaneity is extremely valued by this sign so buying theatre tickets or home plate seats from time to time can make you more attractive. If you can drop what you are doing at a moment's notice in order to travel up the coast for a romantic weekend, you will definitely score a hit here. The ability to have fun is another must as it is practically a religion for this individual. If you can handle a relationship t...

she being Brand by e e cummings

she being Brand -new;and you know consequently a little stiff i was careful of her and(having thoroughly oiled the universal joint tested my gas felt of her radiator made sure her springs were O. K.)i went right to it flooded-the-carburetor cranked her up,slipped the clutch(and then somehow got into reverse she kicked what the hell)next minute i was back in neutral tried and again slo-wly;bare,ly nudg. ing(my lev-er Right- oh and her gears being in A 1 shape passed from low through second-in-to-high like greasedlightning)just as we turned the corner of Divinity avenue i touched the accelerator and give her the juice,good (it was the first ride and believe i we was happy to see how nice she acted right up to the last minute coming back down by the Public Gardens i slammed on the internalexpanding & externalcontracting brakes Bothatonce and brought allofher tremB -ling to a:dead. stand- ;Still) e e...

Yahoo! Finished my other blog!!!

Well.. not completely finished. I need to write a brief description of the entire trip and stuff like that. But at least my Camiguin report is on the web. Hmmm... I hope PRRM sees this as free publicity. These are the things they cannot take away from me. Hehe... 10-day vacation/work commissioned by the Philippine Rural Reconstruction Movement. What more can I ask for? Ten days akong paikot-ikot dun sa isla na yun!!! Tapos yun nasa inventory na man-made at natural resources nila, 90% nun pinuntahan ko four years ago!!! Inakyat ko yun Hibok-hibok at Old Volcano, nilangoy ang Tuasan Falls, namasyal sa Katibawasan Falls, Gui-ob Ruins, nag-scubadiving sa Sunken Cemetery at Old Volcano area, White Island, Mantigue Island, Ardent Hot Spring na yan, Sto. Nino Cold Spring. And at age 24, I was the youngest consultant for PRRM that time. Sabi nga nung friend ko na na boss kong pinagre-reporta-an noon, "Bakit ang nene ng pinadalang researcher?" Nyahahaha Oo nga, eh, kung ngayo...

Blog Hop: Let's Talk about Sex, Baby...

Let's Talk about Sex, Baby... by Mr. Clean First of all let me clear up why exactly I'm tackling this subject. I'm writing about sex for the same reason I write about the struggle between capitalism and socialism,. SImply because I think about it from time to time. Erika, you will stop laughing. NOW. I suppose this came about from random conversations on IRC. I go there for my supply of "one-time conversations". If you've watched Fight Club you'll have an idea of what I'm talking about. Random intelligent conversations with a virtual person who may or may not be who they say they are. Good for one use only, although there are always exceptions. Think of it as disposable intellectual stimulation, and you'll have some idea what I'm trying to say. Sex became the topic of conversation from the sheer amount of personal ads flooding the channel asking for no-t hottie liberated f under 18 years old looking for mature men. The average wo...

Why I Love Helen #42

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Found this comic strip at lowbright.com and fell in love with it instantly. Comic box #12 reminded me of my earlier climbs. The year: 1998. The place: Mt. Arayat., Pampanga The event: After an overnight camp, we were heading home and were going down Mt. Arayat. The story: Me being me was goofing around at the tail end part of the movement with my guy friends. Let the person I was following disappear, sprint downwards to gain on them, then stop once I've reached them, and then let them disappear again. The trail was wet, muddy, slippery, and I was wearing tennis shoes for crying out loud. *hehehe* That makes it more dangerous. So I was going downwards, doing my half-sprint only to find out why the movement was so slow. They were helping one of the girls go down this steep step and if I were to bump on her it would create a domino effect with everybody on the ground as far as the first man leading the trail. Since my shoes had unreliable brakes (too much mud), it was ...

The Squat on Second Position

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This was taken sometime in 2002. We were in Batulao having lunch with our 'guide.' I forgot his name, but he's that little boy on the upper right. The other girl we call her "Doc." I also forgot her name. She teaches chemistry at DLSU-Taft and already has her PhD kaya "Doc". My friend, Arjyl, is the one behind the camera taking our pic. As you may have guessed, I am the girl in green shirt. Do take note of the stance, I bet that is not how my jazz teacher would have wanted me in but I was not even aware of my body's position at that time. It's a squat on second position, tapos nakausli ang pwet! Hahaha I never realized how loose my limbs were until I saw this picture. Don't worry, I'm still flexible up to now. *wink*

Kink Rules, Losers Drool!

Let's just say that for the past four years I have dated a total of 50 males in the Philippines with ages ranging from 18 to 35. And out of the 50, I only liked 5 of them. There is something terribly wrong. I have had too much fun meeting with people that have been set up for me by my friends---they love to play the matchmaker. I sometimes had the suspicion, behind my back, they are making a dating service out of me. That date didn't work out, I have another one for you. It didn't work out again? In comes another one. One friend even had the audacity to admit, "You're a good catch! You're smart, you never run out of stories, you're not too bad looking, and you're available. Here, let me introduce you to another friend of mine." After four years in the dating game, I'm tired. I'm ready to give up. I will embrace single-blessedness anytime soon. Most men I meet are boring or too macho. They like me because they think I have an intere...

Counting Dates

I was crying about two or three hours ago. I guess I got overly sentimental na tipong umabot to that question na naman na, "Bakit wala pa rin akong boyfriend?" *Sabay hagulgol* Yeah, I'm crazy. I saw this Bongbong Marcos look-alike guy who took me home probably two weeks ago after I watched the Bridge concert and he didn't even made a pass at me. *Hagulgol ulit* Kahit na magkatabi naman kami sa upuan sa Sidebar. *Mas malakas na hagulgol* Am I losing my charms? *sniff* Hehehehe My evil twin na gurl na friend took me home at around 12:30am. Woke up around 2am after taking my "nap." And I started crying. Thoughts of... "Ang ganda-ganda ko pero men don't love me. Sayang naman kung di dadami ang lahi!!" "Ayoko ng makipag-date ever again." Then I start counting, how many dates have I had for the past year? Oh my God! I cannot remember. I try again. How many dates have I had last month? On the top of my head, I can...

ABB-Peyups Oldies Thread has a new Home!!!

ABB - acronym for mga Anak ni Boy Bastos After I don't know how many days of trying...really trying...trying really hard!!! Harder than hard! Oh my god it's really hard!!! I hope that my moving threads have finally paid off! Ewan ko ba. I took it upon myself to keep the thing alive! Hahaha Ang comment ko nga was because "it churns my creative juices." How'd I know that? My nipples become perky just going to the site. Of course, I'm kidding! Alam mo ba kung ano na ang mga balak kong gawin kung di siya mag-work with Member's Area? 1. Find ways to open the Sex and Intimacy thread ng Peyups. If people are commenting that "It should be opened." I was already plotting ways on how to open it. I was thinking, how would a certain payment scheme sustain Peyups' servers if they would need around PhP 2000 per month. How much would be appealing to the younger audience? Would people from UP be eager to pay for something just so they can post a...

Funny Chain Letter

An email chain letter that made me chuckle. Pyramid scheme that will work Finally, a worthy pyramid scheme! Simply send this e-mail to 9 of your mates INSTRUCTIONS Anaesthetise your wife/girlfriend, put her in a large carton, (don't forget some ventilation holes),and send it to the person who is at the top of your list. Soon, your name will be at the top of the list, and you will receive 823,542 women through the post. Statistically, among those women, there will be at least: 0.5 Miss Worlds, 2.5 models, 463 wild nymphos, 3,234 good-looking nymphos, 20,198 who enjoy multiple orgasms, and 40,198 bi-sexual women. In total, that is 64,294 women who are simply hornier, less inhibited, and tastier than the grumpy old bag you posted off. And, best of all, your original package is guaranteed not to be one of those that come back to you. DO NOT BREAK THIS CHAIN LETTER!!! One bloke for example who sent the letter to only 5 instead of 9 of his friends go...

10 Traits Every Man is Looking for in a Serious Girlfriend

Lisa Daily , syndicated relationship columnist and author of Stop Getting Dumped , followed her own advice and married her dream man, who proposed at the top of the Eiffel Tower after a six-month courtship. Here, Daily dishes about the 10 traits every man is looking for in a serious girlfriend: 1. She has a life of her own -- and it's pretty good to boot. Ladies, this means that you take care of yourself, pay attention to your personal style and find time to hang with your fabulous friends and family. You seek adventure by traveling. And you take in life's pleasures -- from indulging in dessert to walking through the park on a sunny day. "You don't expect your boyfriend to be your entire existence," says Daily. In other words, you're not waiting for some man to show up, so you can get your "real life" started. 2. She never makes the first move . This issue has been debated to death, and there is no true consensus. But Daily says th...

Tumataba nga ako pero ayoko mapagod!

“Aerobic is any movement under the sun for 30 minutes or more in oxygen. Any movement. Walking can be a fabulous aerobic activity. Jump, row, hike, cycle, swim, do whatever it is you enjoy – but if you want to be aerobic, you must be in oxygen, and if you want to burn fat, it’s got to be for 30 minutes or more in oxygen.” – Susan Powter, Stop the Insanity (p162) Ang sa akin naman, "working out" would not feel like it's "work" if you're enjoying it. When I was in elementary, palibhasa sa Bataan ako nun, tipong every afternoon pulos laro ginagawa ko from 3-5pm. Andyan na mag-chinese garter, habulan base, patintero, jumping rope, volleyball, o di kaya sasama ako ng tatay ko mag-tennis. Tinatakbo ko pa palagi yun school ko kasi lagi akong late kahit 3 kanto lang ang layo ng bahay namin. I led a very relaxed lifestyle when I was in high school. All-girls school sa Quezon City na pulos kwentuhan ginagawa namin nun e. But I was part of the theater group s...

Men and Cute Tellers

Women, do not underestimate the power of a cute smile. I do not know what is it about cute women and men. But as you will see in this entry, there is a huuuuge connection with cute women tellers and the men I'm acquainted with. Let me demonstrate... Exhibit A While browsing on Chinito's web page, this caught my attention. On September 3, 2004 Chinito wrote on his blog: I really had no plans doing that stunt I did two days ago. That is, smiling and getting everyine I come across with this morning. Until I saw the bank tellers. Haha. She was cute. And she was cuter when she smiled and greeted back. Nyehehehe... I think I'm going to open an account there. :D Exhibit B And remembered this entry from months ago in peyups.com's Oldies Thread. Okay, never mind his bank accounts but do notice where the biggest deposits are... On 2004-06-04 14:45, hydro posted this at peyups.com's Oldies Thread : may the mods correct me if i'm wrong, pero ...

I Speak My Mind

Brief Explanation: I am back to my addictive ways. If 2-3 years ago it was mIRC, now it's a thread in Peyups that I keep coming back to. Coming from the IT industry with a College of Mass Communication background and a strong personal affiliation for anarchism, I am an advocate of "Freedom of Speech." This is just me with a lit up fuse and passionate about what I believe in. Life would be boring without our passions. Bastos daw kasi kami. ABB stands for Anak ni Boy Bastos. And I just want the entire thread back to its old name. Note to myself: This thread is just teeming with a lot of creative juices that is a good pond to fish ideas. Am thinking of putting up a blog to archive all of our discussions.(Got the idea from lastboyonearth). Looks like nagkakaroon ng isyu ang pagpalit ng title ng Oldies thread to Anak ni BB Thread . Much as I want to keep my silence regarding the subject, I feel that I am somewhat responsible for some of what is happening here. As...