Feeling the Blues
I've been calling around hospitals asking how much is creatinine and their lithium assay. Looking for a bargain deal. These are both checked through my blood and I used to get both of them from UST Hospital since it's like one jeep ride away from my place. But then, they're so fucking expensive that I had to do a little research today.
Creatinine's for checking if I still have healthy kidneys. The lithium assay is for measuring lithium in my blood, usually therapeutic range between 0.50-1.40 is considered acceptable. I've been drinking lithium carbonate (Quilonium-R) since 1994. It's probably working well since that was the last time I had a relapse. Hurray for lithium!!!
I was only twelve when I learned I had this rare mood disorder. That was 1988. And it was only in 1994 that I learned what it was called. Bipolar disorder.
I don't know what exactly it is. They tell me it's a mood disorder. In 1994, when people saw me "in action" with a relapse in UP Manila they just thought I was under the influence of marijuana. Don't you think it's nice to be in UP? Everybody's weird kaya they don't notice whether you're sick or not.
At least mukha akong addict kahit di naman ako nagda-drugs. What a cheap way to get high! I don't know how I do it but I can be in both states at the same time --- manic and depressed. Anyway, I'll explain that later.
As for now, I found the cheapest lithium assay in St. Luke's Medical Center for Php396 and Creatinine worth Php190 in Manila Doctor's Hospital. Most expensive lithium assay is in Medical City for Php725.
I went to see my doctor last week. After one year of not visiting him and not having my blood checked, I think I'm not too confident if I am well today.
I've been guinea pigging myself with the medications for a year and I might have gone overboard. hehehe I feel a little depressed right now. Just a little. Not too, too depressed na tipong I get so low than the floor --- the type where you reach the core of the earth kind of depression. Not that type.
Besides, I do have a cycle. When I have this lonely feeling, I'd usually get back to the happy feeling. But when I'm in the lonely feeling and something pisses me off... I get pissed off too easily. So far I haven't bit off anybody's head lately. I just walk away from arguments when I'm in this state.
I am probably PMS-ing. I'm like a week late. *gasp* Sorry, no baby. :D Pregnancy and lithium don't mix well.
Thing is, with average women, PMS is really bad. But if you are bipolar, depends on the mood, it doubles over. Or maybe it's just my imagination.
Not exactly how I want this to come out but this will do for now. I'm finding it hard to explain things right now. I'm finding it hard to inject humor. :D
Creatinine's for checking if I still have healthy kidneys. The lithium assay is for measuring lithium in my blood, usually therapeutic range between 0.50-1.40 is considered acceptable. I've been drinking lithium carbonate (Quilonium-R) since 1994. It's probably working well since that was the last time I had a relapse. Hurray for lithium!!!
I was only twelve when I learned I had this rare mood disorder. That was 1988. And it was only in 1994 that I learned what it was called. Bipolar disorder.
I don't know what exactly it is. They tell me it's a mood disorder. In 1994, when people saw me "in action" with a relapse in UP Manila they just thought I was under the influence of marijuana. Don't you think it's nice to be in UP? Everybody's weird kaya they don't notice whether you're sick or not.
At least mukha akong addict kahit di naman ako nagda-drugs. What a cheap way to get high! I don't know how I do it but I can be in both states at the same time --- manic and depressed. Anyway, I'll explain that later.
As for now, I found the cheapest lithium assay in St. Luke's Medical Center for Php396 and Creatinine worth Php190 in Manila Doctor's Hospital. Most expensive lithium assay is in Medical City for Php725.
I went to see my doctor last week. After one year of not visiting him and not having my blood checked, I think I'm not too confident if I am well today.
I've been guinea pigging myself with the medications for a year and I might have gone overboard. hehehe I feel a little depressed right now. Just a little. Not too, too depressed na tipong I get so low than the floor --- the type where you reach the core of the earth kind of depression. Not that type.
Besides, I do have a cycle. When I have this lonely feeling, I'd usually get back to the happy feeling. But when I'm in the lonely feeling and something pisses me off... I get pissed off too easily. So far I haven't bit off anybody's head lately. I just walk away from arguments when I'm in this state.
I am probably PMS-ing. I'm like a week late. *gasp* Sorry, no baby. :D Pregnancy and lithium don't mix well.
Thing is, with average women, PMS is really bad. But if you are bipolar, depends on the mood, it doubles over. Or maybe it's just my imagination.
Not exactly how I want this to come out but this will do for now. I'm finding it hard to explain things right now. I'm finding it hard to inject humor. :D
Comments
Does this mean you're also capable of being overly excited or super happy?
When your depressed, just keep thinking lilipas din yon. That's how I cope up with it, when it does occur to me. Pero di naman madalas.
TheEqualizer.