To Kink or Not to Kink

Found this face in beautifulagony.com---for a woman having an orgasm, she looks so peaceful amidst all the ecstasy. 

It's simply divine to wear a two-piece in the summer. This picture was taken by Karl De Leon sometime in February 2004. This one's a favorite among my friends. You can say that he "caught me on film" --- charming, free-spirited, 34D breasts, and an I don't care what other people think about me attitude. Yes, my looks can drive the men insane but, as always, I keep attracting the wrong kind. Once they see me, they never bother to see the "real" me. I thought before that it should bother me but could I help it if they find me irresistible?! Yes, I am vain---I barely comb my hair, I shampoo every other day, and when the weather is cold I hate taking a bath.

Would you believe these women belong to the Brazilian soccer team? I don't know what year Playboy published this on their Lat-Am edition. I wish I play soccer with these women.  

During one of my PMS days I exclaimed, "Alam mo yun gusto mong gumawa ng dahilan para bastusin ka ng mga lasenggo sa kanto niyo para lang may dahilan ka makipagsuntukan just so you could take it out of your system?!" Talk about "Be careful what you wish for, you might just get it!!! " Ok, I decided to play futbol today. Not only was I the only female playing in the entire sunken garden, kalaban pa ng team namin yun mga tandercats ng futbol na saksakan ng gulang!! (I won't mention the club). It was a friendly competition but these futbol tandercats masyadong competitive. Ayaw papatalo!! Anyways, being female and all shempre I was sort of being ignored sa "boys club." Akala ko nga saling-pusa ako e. My role in the game was "taga-agaw ng bola at taga-block para di pumasok ng goal yun bola." So one of the tandercats kicked the ball... unfortunately my face blocked the ball ... *everybody stopped, all eyes on me*... (tangina am...

"Oo, tumataba nga ako." I faced that truth around two or three years ago. Although I lead a very active lifestyle, I am always classified under the category "chubby." Pagandahin pa natin... Renaissance painting woman. Kung local na artista naman pagbabasehan: Ara Mina at Joyce Jimenez. Although they're not really that big in real life, parang nakakalula sila pag nasa screen. Ewan ko lang si Katya Santos. So the first truth that I had to face: Not all bodies are created equal. Kung naturally curvy ang katawan ko, kapag pumayat ako, pwede ko bang maging kasing-katawan si Gwyneth Paltrow o di kaya si Nicole Kidman? O di kaya yun mga supermodel na sina Cindy Crawford, Naomi Campbell, at Tyra Banks? Siyempre hinde! But there was a time in my life when I wanted to be flat-chested, tall, and bony. Pulos supermodel laman ng mga magazines ng mga panahon na yun e! Ang ginawa ko, tinigilan ko na lang pagbabasa ng magazine! Kelangan talaga na may realistic t...

I think it's a goal of every living female (or even every living male) in the planet to lose weight. Unless of course you're one of those gifted ones na kahit anong kain hindi tumataba. I can just imagine every guy's face when their significant other pops up the question, "Honey, tumataba ba ako?" I think that's the second nightmarish question in a guy's life. Next to "When are we getting married?" *gasp* To keep the peace, men would never tell you the truth. They would of course sugarcoat it with something like, "Hindi ah! Maganda ka pa rin." "Tumataba ba ako?" "You have a great personality naman ah? Wala sila nun." "Tumataba ba ako?" "Sweetie, may asim ka pa rin." (Kapag heto ang sinagot sa 'yo, tanungin mo kung gaano kaasim --- orange juice, grapefruit juice, pineapple juice, sampaloc, o kamias? Hindi ko nakayanan asim ng purong grapefruit juice na walang asukal... blech!)...

June 8, 2004 Dear Somebody Up There Who Likes Me, Another year have passed and thanks to you I’m still alive! It has been twenty-eight years. Two years from now I’ll be in my thirties and I’m glad that somehow you made me grow old gracefully. People still think I’m twenty-three and I would often correct them by saying, “Twenty-five”. However, I cannot be twenty-five for three years hence I admit that I need to grow up. I don’t know if I ever made any birthday wishes in the past. I guess this would be the first time I would even make one that is so... public. I didn’t make enough money this year. I was thinking maybe I can celebrate it virtually. Right here with people who like reading my stuff, with those who over the years have become my friends and with those who feel they actually see themselves in the things I write. They are the ones who make my virtual presence "real". I'm thankful to them for putting more sense in what I write. Let’s hope they hav...