To Kink or Not to Kink

Amanda Lepore: Melon, New York, 1998 color, 20"x24", signed, edition of 30  Upon seeing it, reminded me of paintings by Matisse and Gauguin. Great colors. Wicked humor. Kink pick-up line: Hi, Lady, nice melon you got there! Pakwan naman...

What's so nice with the Unlimited offer one telco is offering right now... you find friends and get re-acquainted with their lives once more. Ibang klase! Who could have imagined that you could do "telebabad" on your own mobile phone?! I had one guy friend whom had so much fun talking to me, asked me to meet him at a nearby coffee shop just so we could continue our two hour long updates. I met this guy during my UP Manila days but lost touch somewhere. "Are you doing anything ba? Saan ka ba banda? Puntahan kita diyan." I told him my exact location and we ended up talking in a coffee shop. Two hours on the phone and a coffee shop meeting was all it took for him to open up about something that has been bothering him the whole weekend or so he tells me. "Kink, can I tell you something? Promise me you won't tell it to anybody else?" "Yeah, sure. Like I still see the people we both used to know. I can put you on my blog though but I won...

Duncan James of Blue aka Ang Lalaking Bagong Laba. Hehehe... never expected myself to be a boyband fan. But he's sooo darn sexy! I've only seen him mostly on Blue's MTV and everytime I see him I just throw my knickers on my TV set. *snicker* What I like most about this bloke is that he doesn't give a bloody shit about his looks. He always has that "I just got out of the spin dryer" look. Or what I'll say in my own native language, "Ang lalaking mukhang bagong laba." He probably looks at himself in the mirror, fixes his hair with gel, buttons his shirt, puts on his pants then runs out of the door. Honey, I like the attitude and I like your style. Rating: Three lacy thong panties and a see-through bra.

No more! My heart cannot take the pain anymore. I picture myself amidst a great big hall surrounded by doors. All of them are open. Sunlight streaming through them. This is my heart. This great big hall with doors widely open. Welcoming everyone. No more. This stops now. I want to feel less pain and let the scars that haven't healed yet to mend itself. *Door creaks. Shuts it. Locks it with key.* No more charity work for me. I've given dates even to those I don't even like. It was in the hopes that they see themselves and appreciate who they are. Seeing that a nice, not-so-bad-looking woman is actually going out with them. I wanted them to have more confidence. But it never really worked. They feed off from my confidence. *BANG! Closes another door shut. Lock.* Former lovers whom I let pass by my life. You belong to my past. Not in the present. No more baggages from here on. I leave you. *BANG! Lock.* No more pain. *BANG! Lock.* Love hurts? ...

I don't feel good. My brain is swimming. And it seems that everytime I move, the world moves with me. The only time I feel ok is when I'm lying on my bed. Therefore, pwede kaya ako maglakad ng nakahiga na lang? Di ko alam ilang beer nainom ko kagabi. I think I stopped counting at one. One! One beer Bwahahaha! Moved to next week 'yun mga gagawin ko for today. Ang hirap pala maglakad ng nakahiga. Anyway, hindi na talaga ako iinom next time. Hindi na ako iinom ng marami! *** Sabi ko nga kahapon, I'm feeling unwell. Yun akala kong bipolar unwell. I was doing my chores. Walk to the nearby FedEx station and mail my documents. And guess what kung ano ang tugtog kahit saan ako mapunta? Matchbox 21 I'm not crazy I'm just a little unwell right now I know you can't tell But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see a different side of me... Nyahaha And right now I am unwell. Toxic pa nga e. Hangover!!! *** Since I had two bipolar epis...

Taken from Overcoming Depression (The Definitive Resource for Patients and Families who live with Depression and Manic-Depression) by Demitri Papolos, MD and Janice Papolos, 3-4. Mood disorders are the "common cold" of major psychiatric illnesses. Those who have manic-depression will veer from periods of superactivity, manic elation, and grandiose schemes to feeling of despondency, immobility, guilt, and inability to experience pleasure or even think normally. These people who experience these highs and lows have what psychiatrists now call bipolar disorder . Those who suffer recurrent sever depression without the highs are said to have unipolar or nonbipolar major depression. The psychiatric profession groups these mood disturbances under the rubric major affective disorders . At first glance the term "affective" doesn't send the mind traveling, but it's a word philosophers and psychologists have traditionally used for emotion or one's "spiri...

I've been calling around hospitals asking how much is creatinine and their lithium assay. Looking for a bargain deal. These are both checked through my blood and I used to get both of them from UST Hospital since it's like one jeep ride away from my place. But then, they're so fucking expensive that I had to do a little research today. Creatinine's for checking if I still have healthy kidneys. The lithium assay is for measuring lithium in my blood, usually therapeutic range between 0.50-1.40 is considered acceptable. I've been drinking lithium carbonate (Quilonium-R) since 1994. It's probably working well since that was the last time I had a relapse. Hurray for lithium!!! I was only twelve when I learned I had this rare mood disorder. That was 1988. And it was only in 1994 that I learned what it was called. Bipolar disorder. I don't know what exactly it is. They tell me it's a mood disorder. In 1994, when people saw me "in action" with...

Bye, Mr. Reeve, feel free to visit me *wink* Crush ko si Christopher Reeve nung seven years old pa lang ako. (Kasi ang alam ko pagdating ko ng eight patay na patay na ako kay Robby Rosa. *sings "Like A Cannonball") nyahaha Naalala ko yung kilig na naglalakbay mula sa tumbong ko pataas ng spinal column ko!! Yung panahon na di ako mapakali sa upuan kahit nai-Combantrin naman na ako ng nanay ko tuwing pinapanood ko yun Superman. Peyborit ko yun part 2. Pansin niyo rin bang laging naka-pomada ang buhok niya at hindi nagugulo kahit "mahangin sa labas?" Yes, folks! God has taken another one of my cutie pies. Surely I wouldn't mind if he visits me in my dreams. Ahahaayyy... I would always admire this man. He's a great source of inspiration, never fails to amaze me, and his disability was never a hindrance to live a good and fruitful life. Rating: I'll throw in my closet with all my clothes. I'll walk around naked for one day for this guy. May...

He seemed ecstatic when he saw me. I can see it on the grin he flashed and the way his cool, baritone voice greeted me. They were all gone as he turned aloof, distant and businesslike. Maybe this was expected of him, I thought, as I walked three paces behind him. Could it be that he has Japanese lineage and has to abide by their traditions? I wondered; perhaps, considering those tiny slits one would call his eyes. Or it may just be sheer nervousness that made him act in such a manner---to think that he shall be doing this with a complete stranger. Then again, it was all part of the bargain. We went inside the room where he asked me to lay down and then said, “Open.” I, on the other hand, was most willing to assist him so I naturally complied. It had been hours that we remained in that position. At least, he had the advantage to maneuver into a more comfortable position. While I, poor and helpless, sustained the same placement in prolonged anguish. He was luckier fo...

I want one but not now. This is my nephew, Jaos Dominic aka my little Domeng. hehe Born on August 27, 2004. I'm not his mameeh, my younger sister is. I'm going to be his "Tita Ninang" come October 24, 2004. I still have to buy him his gift and I need to find where in West Triangle is the church.

Ngayon, ‘yan na palagi ang tanong sa akin. Isang buwan lang akong di nakita ng nanay, tatay at tiyahin ko, biglang bungad sa akin, “Payat ka yata ngayon.” Pati kapag dumadaan ako ng Powerdance twice a month, tanong din iyan ng mga kaklase kong nakita ako nung medyo chubby-chubby ako tinatanong ako ng, “ Bakit ang payat mo ngayon?” Ang sagot ko, “Hindi ko alam.” Dahil kapag tinitimbang ko naman ang sarili ko sa weighing scale ko nasa pagitan pa rin ng 125-130 lbs pa rin ang timbang ko gaya nung huli nila ako nakita at 5’4” pa rin naman ang height ko so di ko alam bakit. Yan na rin ang timbang ko for the past two years since 2002. Kapag tinitingnan ko sarili ko sa salamin, andon pa rin naman puson ko, di pa rin naman malnourished ang itsura ko. Malaki pa rin boobs ko at matambok pa rin pwet ko. At hindi payat ang tawag ko sa sarili ko... sexy.* Hehe *Oo na, makapal na kung makapal pero sino pa ba mag-a-appreciate sa akin kundi sarili ko, di ba??! Walang saysay ang pagbabawas...